This just in.
*spoiler alert* Though, I don’t write ‘review-reviews’. I write what I feel. Felt. Am feeling.
I cried toward the final 20% of the book.
Also, I have been sitting on Walter Isaacson’s bio on Steve Jobs since it was published. Now I know why.
It was meant to be sat on.
I’m not an Apple fan. I may have had a MacBook Air, have a MacBook Pro, used an iPhone 4, 5, owned two iPads and own two iPads, plus other Apple stuff; but I’m not a fan. I just buy things that appealed to me, randomly. I don’t idolize Steve Jobs (never cared about Apple launches). Brilliant, but I’d pick Anderson Cooper over him any second. And yeah as if I’d even ever get to do that.
I cried because of Kevin and Dorothy’s kindness. There’s a quote somewhere by someone random who said something along the lines of,
Lisa may one day realize she can never replace her parents, and Kevin and Dorothy can never buy a daughter.
What a stupid thing to say. Really. But you’ve been mentioned in her book so, congratulations, I guess?
The part where Steve’s bio on some corporate website mentioned he has three instead of four children.
The parts where her father keeps saying, or hints, “You need to be part of the family, Lis,” – I’m sorry, but isn’t that some form of gaslighting? The author’s so kind with her words. Probably doesn’t wanna upset her siblings, especially the youngest one, named Eve, because Eve said, out loud, “She was daddy’s mistake,” – Kids, they always say the darnest things and get away with it, though I hope, not for life. Eve, if you’re reading this, I hope you’ve since grown to realize that you could process thoughts before you speak.
It’s easy to read this bio without the late Steve Jobs hovering around the pages because I’ve never read much nor finished watching videos with Steve Jobs in it. I believe it has a lot to with my disliking of what’s ‘trending‘. I was working closely with consumer technology for a decade and yet I couldn’t be bothered.
So, once again? Now I know why. Strange, but it’s so that I could dive in clean into this memoir of a wounded soul. I visualized her father as her father, first. Mostly, even. The way she wrote this memoir, it wasn’t about her father, who happens to be Steve Jobs.
It was about a child’s relationship with her father.
Did I know Steve Jobs was cruel towards his “mistake of a
n unwed family he didn’t want”? Not until I read this book.
Did I know he was stingy? Same answer, no, not really.
All I knew was that he was a genius with a temper, and had a kid he originally refused to acknowledge paternity. That, was, it.
So, for me, it’s as though all these years dealing with condumer technology and the media, I was miraculously saved from all these insignificant details, until Small Fry was written and published.
I’m glad, I’m really effing glad, that I had sat on Jobs, the biography.
I don’t know what kind of surprises will be waiting for me, but I hope it would address Steve’s parents (not much of the birth ones), their relationship, and how he came to be one of, well, the cold people his wife Laurene openly declared during a session with the author’s therapist (“We’re just cold people”, said Laurene. The author was also present during the session). I am also curious about Laurene. She’s gotta be his twin, otherwise, there’s no way their relationship had continued to work.
Despite all the negativity, I do agree with the author’s father on this, which is possibly (should damn be) the greatest quote by him, ever –
Passage taken from the book, chapter ‘Runaway’:
My father gave a speech in which he said that it wasn’t love that brought people together and kept them together, but values – shared values.
How’s Laurene not his twin, I will never be able to comprehend.
I’m drained from this read, in a good way, I suppose. I can never begin to imagine the sorrow she’s been carrying since she was a tiny, curious, hungry for acceptance, child. Ms. Brennan-Jobs, you will pay it forward. Thank you for sharing your story.